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〔 鬼龍紅郎 〕 ∗ ᴋɪʀʏᴜ ᴋᴜʀᴏ ([personal profile] taishou) wrote2018-01-31 10:39 pm
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there's nothing like it

KURO KIRYU
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espansivo: (18 i'm the princess of red roses)

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-07-15 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[the tug's enough of a surprise that leo only tenses once he's hit kuro's body, a moment passing before his fingers curl into the other's shirt and he presses his face against him.

he's scared, but he doesn't want to be. baba's can't die. she's ancient, she was lovers with a god who granted her a long life, she--]


Do you think she'll be okay, Kuro?

[soft, like he doesn't want to be heard.]

It's just an old person problem... right?
pronounces: pixiv @ 14260809 (59.)

[personal profile] pronounces 2018-07-15 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ watching his own memories doesn't feel nearly as voyeuristic as the rest of the (really) nightmare this has been, so nazuna's not against sneaking to watch. it's not something he's never seen before, either, which means kuro kiryu coming out of the roof door shouldn't be all that surprising.

but all the dots click into place, as he watches kuro walk past them, towards the other nazuna. he brightens, offering him a four finger wave and patting the spot next to him. this is a routine, after all, because back then, they didn't really have any friends.

the older nazuna's heart squeezes in his chest. that fondness and familiarity is mutual: it feels like he's on the verge of uncovering something, but can't quite pull the curtain back all the way. this person... ]
...so, we used to know each other.

[ the other nazuna still hasn't spoken, but he smiles at kuro as they settle by each other, which might be confirmation enough. ] We must have been friends.
espansivo: (22 you're the knight of the white moon)

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-07-15 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, they do. She'll shed her old age and become youthful again, just like she's done for centuries.

[but it's not very convincing, even to himself, and he sighs shakily. he won't cry. there's a chance she'll be fine, that she's not dying.]

Sorry, I didn't wanna come over like this, but-- I can't stop thinkin' about it. I wanna see her before anything bad does happen, if it does, but...

[... his parents.]
espansivo: (39 stir me up too)

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-07-16 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
[he hesitates, and

surprisingly

he shakes his head, grip tightening as he looks up. leo's face is the beginnings of blotchy, eyes wet, pinched expression. like the kid who ran off after the last fight he and his parents had, needing a place to stay before he ran off to see the world.]


If I want to go to her funeral I have to face them. Baba... won't rest peacefully if I leave things like this, whenever the gods ask for her.

[because she will be in the realm of the gods, certainly. not in the underworld unlike her grandson.]

I don't want to worry her to death.
pronounces: (96.)

[personal profile] pronounces 2018-07-16 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ the scene continues on that way, the two high school versions of themselves interacting as normal. the younger nazuna has a bento on his lap too, and he takes out a piece, interacting with kuro with little hums and noises instead of actually talking. the other kuro's pretty chatty, and it makes the older nazuna smile, naturally leaning in to elbow his kuro a little. ] I think we were really good friends.

[ it's kind of sweet, actually. this memory is nice, for nazuna: it's one of the few positive ones he has of this long haired version of himself. he looks to be enjoying spending time with kuro: at one point, he puffs up a cheek at a tease kuro gives him and socks him in the arm, making the other kuro laugh.

on his own end, he curls his fingers against his sleeve, watching, not looking at kuro next to him. ]
...maybe...it might be a good idea to be that way in this life, too. Right...?
espansivo: (09 the dance beat won't end)

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-07-17 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
[the gesture helps him a little, it's grounding and easy to focus on, though it brings on a fresh set of tears too. his grip tightens on kuro's shirt.]

So I should... talk to them, or at least see if they'll see me, right..? And talk to Baba. [nothing has ever felt harder in his entire life than these sets of actions.] What if they don't want anythin' to do with me still? I mean, I was disowned for a reason, you know? 'Cause I ran away, 'cause I didn't agree with 'em, and... and now Tsuka-tan's the only son the Suzakura has ever had.

[which has

never

been fair in his eyes, really, but not out of some selfish desire to have it all. leo's fine with having his own name. but to place that burden entirely on someone else? to have high expectations and be expected to take over a shrine, no buts about it? tsukasa could do so much more with his life, and it's leo's fault he can't.]


They might not even let me see Baba. [it's a terrifying truth. he rests his head against kuro again, sighing out his nose.] I'll... sneak in if that's the case, but I don't really want to.
pronounces: (102.)

[personal profile] pronounces 2018-08-06 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ nazuna feels...warm.

it's not the same one that comes from his once upon a time crush on an attractive drummer in his friend's band, or even really the same one that he feels with leo. watching this scene, seeing a version of himself who was so clearly uncomfortable with himself in every way, shape or form pretty happy is--it's a lot, and looking up to kuro's smile is a lot, too.

he can't help but return it, lips curving up into something soft and warm as he looks up at kuro. he's forgotten the embarrassing dream from earlier, and it's faded into something like this. something comfortable and warm, like falling back into step in a march he'd forgotten he'd dropped out of. ]


...I was thinking the same thing. If...if we remember this tomorrow, [ and hopefully just this part, though he's not saying it. ] let's go grab coffee, or something. What do you say?
espansivo: (09 the dance beat won't end)

9/4....... yes good timing

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-09-10 01:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[because i realized that this would actually better be started by me, leo has been. having a time, this year, between these and those things and

well, kuro is a Little bit of the problem, but it isn't like he... didn't know, it isn't like leo was unaware. in fact, he was sure it wouldn't last, not with their hearts drawn in two different directions, but--

but maybe he'd hoped a little too hard that things would be fine despite that. so, almost like it used to be with a worrying frequence, leo's waiting for kuro to return home, curled up with tora on the bed and petting him. he's already done his duties to alex for miai today, he can have sometime to spare.

anyway, he won't notice kuro coming in immediately, distracted and smelling Vaguely like alcohol. just a bit. leo didn't drink today, he just hasn't changed clothes since he went out last night.]
espansivo: (24 don't let go)

!!!!!!!! we out here beneath the radar

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-09-10 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[comfort. that's what kuro represents, it's what nazuna represents, but he. doesn't want to think about nazuna so much, it hurts to. so kuro is comfort, is home, and he's always been that way.

leo turns around and wraps his arm around his waist, burrowing into the other. it's a quiet bit before he speaks, a little muffled.]


Me an' Nazu broke up. Baba's gone. Tsuka-tan found out about my lies. [...] I'm in an emotional affair with my ex.

[he's laying it all out. take your pick.]
espansivo: (03 come on; come!)

fight the man

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-09-10 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Just that. He caught me somehow. [...................] Well, I... had a fight with my parents, when I went to see Baba before she passed, and he overheard me talking to them...

[like he had years ago, just before leo left and didn't return.]

We're... okay, kind of..? I don't expect him to forgive me, and he wants us to be better people together, but it still... hurts. What he said, how I made him feel, how much I hurt him by being so stupidly selfish.

[by running away, by seeking his own path instead of the one their parents laid out.

(he remembers his parents words too. was living with them so awful? was it so terrible that he'd had to run away the way he did? no, but...

...)]


I hurt my parents too. All I do is hurt people when I act for myself. It sucks.
espansivo: (39 stir me up too)

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-09-11 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
[very soothing. he closes his eyes when it starts up, breathing out softly as he curls up more against kuro.]

Think so too... Mm, I'm already tryin' to change a bit, you know..? Or I was anyway. [hhh.] For Nazu's sake. But I-- I still wasn't--

[leo bites back the words, inhaling sharply. that's... not the reason and he knows it. it'd be unfair to drag his continued insecurity into it, when he'd always been more than enough for nazuna. he exhales after a moment.]

Anyway. I'm gonna. I don't wanna run anymore, Kuro. M'tired of it. Hurtin' people and all. I just... wanna find someplace I belong, [a small crack,] or with someone that makes me feel that way. I'll do anything for that.
espansivo: (49 you're also the knight of the black m)

[personal profile] espansivo 2018-09-11 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
[kuro always knows what he means when he says one thing, even if it's not clear to anyone else. that, and the gentle trail down part of his face, springs new tears into his eyes, caught by kuro's thumbs as if by habit. no, definitely by habit.

he groans, lifting a hand to beat kuro's chest pathetically. like, pathetic even by his own standards.]


God, I wish I could fall in love with you sometimes. It'd be a lot easier.

[but it. probably wouldn't be like this, if he was. so he shakes his head of the complaint and thought, moving to hang his hand off kuro's wrist loosely.]

... Thanks. Sorry for bein' a baby. I've... been stayin' with Miai's lion, takin' care of him since that guy asked me to while he's doin' this and that, but I'll come back here too. I don't wanna worry you and Suzu-tan any by being out where I shouldn't be.

[like

at bars, and clubs, with little care to himself.]

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