things with retrospec... they're real complicated it makes things kinda messy, don't they? but... i think things will be ok i think right now people are upset, and they need some time to cool down, yknow?
[ nazuna stares at that text for a little while, then presses the phone to his chest and takes a deep breath. for how miserable and low he's trying to force himself not to feel at the moment, something in his chest still squeezes so tight that he feels tears prick the corner of his eyes.
right. calm down. if there's one thing nazuna's awfully good at, it's compartmentalizing. ]
sorry, I know that was out of the blue. 😫 it cheered me up though!! magic, magic ~ I'll just work twice as hard to fix things!
[ Kuro wants to go to Nazuna's dorm, wants to sit down and take his hands in his and squeeze them so tight that maybe, just maybe, he'll be able to transfer every feeling he has about Nazuna into him. Maybe it'll fill up the space where he seems to think so lowly of himself, at the very least convince him that he's better than the vulnerable little boy that he sees when it's just the two of them in a quiet, serious moment.
The one that he saw off, the last day he saw him ten years ago. ]
considerin the entrance leo made, and apparently the impact he's got on all the people in the chat, it's not so much outta the blue but i know you and how hardworking you are so i'm not worried, ok? people will cool down, and we'll all fix it
[ nazuna nito is a coward. in this life and the next, it seems. he's running from his feelings like a terrified rabbit, doing his best to pretend they don't even exist. he gets up in his own dorm room and goes to find tsuchin, mashing his face in his soft fur and taking a long moment to just breathe in deep. he could've gone into detail. he could've admitted something. could've, couldve, could've.
[ Considering all of the compartmentalizing that he's done in his own life, the way that he's bottled things away until his anger exploded like a Molotov cocktail. It's all better, now. He's got an outlet, got his life all together, but the guilt is still bottled up in the pit of his chest. People got hurt because of him, and he could've prevented it. Nazuna left, and he could've tried harder to keep him in his life.
He won't let go, now. But he also won't push when Nazuna's closed off this way. ]
no subject
I messed up something pretty badly again
thank you.. .
[ .... ]
it's okay if you do, though.
even if it's just a little, or a lot.
no subject
it makes things kinda messy, don't they?
but...
i think things will be ok
i think right now people are upset, and they need some time to cool down, yknow?
[ Quiet, for a bit. ]
no subject
i couldn't hate you
and i never would
no subject
right. calm down. if there's one thing nazuna's awfully good at, it's compartmentalizing. ]
sorry, I know that was out of the blue. 😫
it cheered me up though!! magic, magic ~
I'll just work twice as hard to fix things!
no subject
The one that he saw off, the last day he saw him ten years ago. ]
considerin the entrance leo made, and apparently the impact he's got on all the people in the chat, it's not so much outta the blue
but i know you and how hardworking you are
so i'm not worried, ok? people will cool down, and we'll all fix it
no subject
thanks, kurochin!! ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
[ nazuna nito is a coward. in this life and the next, it seems. he's running from his feelings like a terrified rabbit, doing his best to pretend they don't even exist. he gets up in his own dorm room and goes to find tsuchin, mashing his face in his soft fur and taking a long moment to just breathe in deep. he could've gone into detail. he could've admitted something. could've, couldve, could've.
is that all his life is going to be? ]
no subject
He won't let go, now. But he also won't push when Nazuna's closed off this way. ]
any time, nazuna
no matter what it is